to Heath

It has been a while I was planing to make a big come back on my blog after a long holiday laziness. I've thought to post a qout. about the masterpiece of Dunkirk scene from "The Atonement", and I've thought about to post a very touching scene with Zoe Hall's beautiful voice from "Medium". But till now. Heath Ledger's tragic death.

Honestly say. He's not the stereo type of actor will attract me into a movie theater. I watched his movies was simply because he was in many of good movies I enjoyed. Then on one December evening of year 2005. I was fortuned enough to join an actress friend to the premier of the famous Ang Lee's movie Brokeback Mountain at AMC Loews Lincoln Square theater in New York.

That evening. We've met the director first for a half an hour chat then we granted through the red carpet to the theater's lobby, surrounded by many well known faces and a human cyclone's center Heath and Michelle. The premier was separated in two rooms to satisfy all people invited. We were there waiting in the 2nd floor's lounge where girls and gays were lurking their eyes around to see if Jack is present, but I was secretly wishing to get to see Heath.

A moment later. I see a big boy in a soft trendy coat, goofly walks right to me with a big smile. My short sighter vision forced me to eyeing him for quit a while before I can actually recognize he is no one but Heath. I figured he must mistake me with someone else then when he was just few steps from me, I dramatically stepped away to let him pass by. But since he had such goofy way of walk. He was almost hit me with his shoulder.

Movie ended. We were shuttled to "Park", sat at director's table and behind me was Heath with sweet Michelle on his lap. They were totally cute and in love. Michelle seems very shy and Heath was really keen to her. The little sparkling dressed Anne Hathaway was there too and many other famous faces. Director introduces my friend to Heath, and this goofy guy again with a big warm smile mistake me. I had to flicked my eyes and discretely finger pointed to my friend's direction to save the situation.

I realized from that evening, how he was someone simply happy and very different than all his movie's characters. And all that were his perfection of a true talented artist. As he once said: “I feel like I’m wasting time if I repeat myself.” Here he's gone with countless unfinished business that ironically he might just need to repeat many other Groundhog Day lives. And cruelly left us to a nuance world where things are incomprehensible no matter how wise we grow. Things happened unwilling or pointless. No supernatural explanation nor fact reports can cease us wondering the reason.
- to Heath and his love ones with heart.

Medium S401 - My Favorite Things


Atonement - Dunkirk Scene